Welcome back to The Faith Journey. This Sunday series is about my faith walk, and the things the Lord is teaching me as I go. I hope you will join me on this journey and grow in your faith as well.
“Mom, can you get me some more mac and cheese?”
Getting up for what seems like the 100th time I
say, “Sure.”
No sooner do I sit back down then I hear, “Mommy, May I
have more water, please?”
“Yes.” I mutter through clenched teeth. Once again I am on my feet to fetch some more
water.
Back in my chair, I pick up my fork. I take a bite of my dinner…cold…again. Sigh, I stand up to stick it in the
microwave. As I do, I hear, “Mom, may I
have another piece of chicken?” I can
feel the heat in my face as I slam the plate of chicken onto the table. My husband gives me a look that says, “You
need to chill out.”
Grabbing my plate out of the microwave I sit back down hard…too
hard. “Mom, May I be excused?” Exasperated,
I stab my food with my fork. “Go ahead,”
I mumble. I haven’t even started to eat yet and the kids
and my husband are all ready to leave the table.
As they all stream out of the room I think. “Maybe now I will get some peace.” But as if on cue, the baby starts to cry. She is ready to eat now too. Not even tasting my food, I shovel it down so
that I can go nurse her.
Later that night, as I am complaining to my husband about the
dinner situation and how tired I am. He says, “Meredith, you chose this
life. You are the one that said you
wanted to do the stay at home thing. No
one is making you.” It is true. I gave up my place in the working world to be
able to stay home. It is a choice I have
never regretted, so why don’t I act like it?
As I sit there contemplating this, images of me screaming at my kids, losing
my temper with my husband, and gritting
my teeth while cleaning all flash through my mind.
My cheeks flush red with embarrassment.
My attitude has been anything but pleasing to the Lord! A passage comes to mind.
“Therefore,
as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with
compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has
a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which
binds them all together in perfect unity.
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body
you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach
and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from
the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed,
do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father
through him.” - Colossians 3:12-17 (NIV)
“For it is by grace
you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the
gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.”
– Ephesians 2:8-9(NIV)
I do like this series!
ReplyDeleteThough it's not about our deeds, it is good for me to serve happily. Through faith alone...and praying that faith is evident to others.
Dinner is esp difficult for us...picky eaters don't help. I have stopped getting up during the meal...serve food on the table. If a drink is needed, it waits till an adult plate is clean. (Ketchup is a different story...)
Thanks Annette! It has been relly hard to humble myself enough to do it, but I am learning a lot about myself through it.
ReplyDeletei like reading your blog meredith...it's an encouragement to me across an ocean : ) thank you.
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